When It's Over....

Words can’t even begin to describe on how relief I am…now that it’s all over.

The recently concluded, much hyped ‘turn-of-events’ had taken a toll on my nervous system. I guess, I was freaking out too much, letting the unwarranted emotions clouded my judgment and wreaking my sanity to the core.

And if you think I am making reference about other people’s "conundrum" other than mine, boy were you sorely disappointed!

My short, ‘unprepared’ stint as an MC for yesterday afternoon’s big do was not as disastrous as I thought it was going to be (blame it on my overdramatic trait!). It was quite a smooth sailing affair - unless if you consider the garish head-gear I adorned was the major ‘disturbance’!

O well, at least nobody died of mispronunciations by the MC….or gasp, worse, of boredom!

But will I do such things again?

Perhaps. It kinda felt like I was at home. I must say being in the limelight wasn’t all that too bad.

But right now please, don’t ask for my opinions, don’t look for any review and don’t beg for my boss’ feedback. Right this second all I want to do is relax - basking on the free and relief feelings. I simply want to get rest and get out from it all.

Finally everything seems safe and serene and it’s cool and lulling and perfect for sleep.

Umm…you know what, I think I might as well do that…

Silence

“Aku ingat ko takder baju melayu!”

“Ini first time aku bagi ko full mark for dressing for occasion”

“Finally Mus is dressed appropriately!”

I must say those off-remarks completely threw me off. Why would anyone has the slightest notion I couldn’t afford a pair of a decent Baju Melayu. Or for being ‘inappropriate’ all this while for that matter?

Honestly I really wanted to dignify that with an answer but then I decided not to. My conscience was working overtime and I pretended to be unfazed with all the brouhuha. I figured if anything worth an ounce of my emotional outburst, this wouldn’t be it. This is too trivial.

My past experience taught me the more you try to explain yourself to others the more confusing it gets. People will always get the wrong ideas - hormonal people. So it’s just best to keep your two-cents to yourself, smile if you must and walk out with some dignity. You may miss all the fun but the silence is the ultimate wise cracker.

But gee, that somehow didn’t stop me from wondering what the “could have been” answers.

“I am sorry to pop your bubble but…………………”

“Sorry I didn’t dress to your liking before, but I didn’t get the memo…….”

“The same cannot be said about you……”

Wow, that surely gonna blow someone’s stack but at least I’d just being honest….and I didn’t say it out loud!

Or….maybe they were just joking around or maybe they were right (that I never dressed appropriately before) and simply stated the obvious.

Which, in any case I am doomed!